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[silvercat17]

Previously my mom said that they wouldn't let me move back in with them or give me money because they thought it would be bad for me.

Today my mom said she'd be open to me moving in with them* when they move because she's worried my mental problems are going to take a long time to treat.

Gee, you fucking THINK?! You mean the things I've been struggling with all my life, that apparently have just now gotten bad enough for you to notice? Perhaps because I'm actually reaching out for support now? 

Yeah, they're probably as bad or worse as when I was a teenager. Probably because I'm under a lot of stress and I'm missing some vital skills (like being able to self-motivate...). But gee, you think you could've been supportive EARLIER and maybe I wouldn't be in the situation I'm in? It's not like I just started to complain. But noooooo, THEN your advice was 'just do it' as if I wasn't already telling myself that and failing!

* with conditions, of fucking course, like selling most of my stuff because she doesn't think I should get a storage unit. Yes, I have too much stuff, and yes I need to get rid of it, but what does she think I'm going to do with, I dunno, my dishes, table, etc that you need when you have your own place? All of my furniture is utilitarian and vintage and wasn't easy to find.

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[silveradept]

So, having finally decided that the issues you face are genuine and not going away through force of will, they decide that perhaps you could stay with them, assuming you're willing to live by their rules.

That's crackerjack support, that is.

[silvercat17]

Yeah, you think? And it's not like they haven't gone through this stuff. My mom has depression and OCD - but her personality is so different from mine and my dad's that she can't understand our perspective.

When I was living with them, just being medicated for depression was enough. Now it's not, and I'm pretty damn sure I have ADD and it's killing me. Because there's no schedule to keep me going, I'm falling to pieces.